What did you dream of becoming as a child? An astronaut, a doctor, or perhaps a ballerina dancing through the world? Childhood aspirations often feel boundless, filled with the promise of endless possibilities. But how do we measure success as adults? Is it fulfilling the dreams we had as children, or is it living up to the expectations we set for ourselves later in life? It’s a complex question, isn’t it?
For me, it wasn’t just about what I wanted to do – it was about who I wanted to be. Would I grow into someone kind, compassionate, and worthy of admiration? Let me share my journey toward becoming someone my family can be proud of.
The First Dreams
Since primary school, I dreamed of being a teacher or a writer. I immersed myself in every activity involving words, from school papers to creative writing clubs. In my spare time, I helped other children with learning difficulties, playing “teacher” while others played police or war. Teaching felt like a calling, though nothing was set in stone.
Then came my teenage years – a whirlwind of rebellion and self-discovery. I wasn’t the easiest child, and I tested my parents’ patience more than once. Yet their unwavering support shaped me into who I am today, and for that, I’ll always be grateful.
A Dream That Evolved
My ambitions evolved as I grew, but one passion stayed constant: writing. It led me to study Communication Science, where I explored the world of journalism. Inspired by an exceptional history teacher, I also majored in History – a decision I remain proud of.
After college, I landed my first job at a news agency. Diving into the fast-paced world of journalism was thrilling at first. I worked alongside TV reporters and industry veterans, often covering breaking news. But over time, the integrity of the profession seemed to erode. The internet transformed journalism into something unrecognizable, and I found myself disillusioned.
Seeking a fresh start, I ventured into digital marketing. I hoped it would allow me to channel my creativity into vibrant online campaigns. It’s a field I still work in today, though my heart longs to return to my first love – writing. In many ways, I’ve become the person I aspired to be professionally. But what about the rest?
Am I a Good Person?
Beyond careers and goals, I ask myself daily: Am I a good person, wife, and mother? I’d like to believe so, though self-doubt often clouds my judgment. I try to show empathy and respect, even toward those with differing opinions. Some days are easier than others.
I love deeply, strive to avoid judgment, and respect my elders. I do my best to be a good mother, even if I sometimes falter or feel overwhelmed. I remind myself that effort matters most. Life is unpredictable, and being a grown-up isn’t something you can fully prepare for – it just happens.
What I’ve Learned
Trying is what matters. Trying to do what you love, to love deeply, to respect kindly, and to keep going despite bad days. When I was younger, I had no idea how complex adulthood would be. As much as I love my life, there are moments when it feels hard. And that’s okay. Life isn’t supposed to be easy – that’s a lesson I’ve learned on my own.
Even if you don’t work in the field you once dreamed of or if life doesn’t follow your plans, strive to create a life you’ll remember. Hold on to the spark of your childhood dreams, even if they’ve shifted.
Am I Who I Thought I’d Be?
So, am I who I thought I’d be? Yes, I think I am. I’ve lived out the dreams of a younger Erika, even if they look different than I imagined. I write, I strive to be kind, I have a family I adore, and I can express myself freely.
What about you? Are you living the dreams of your younger self, or have new ones taken their place? If your dreams have shifted, that’s okay. Dreams are like maps – guiding us forward, even if the destination changes along the way. Sometimes, the detours we take reveal paths we never imagined, leading us to something just as fulfilling, if not more so.
Trying and Growing
What truly matters isn’t whether your life aligns perfectly with your childhood aspirations but whether you’ve embraced the journey. Are you chasing what makes your heart race? Are you finding joy in the little moments and learning from the challenges?
As I reflect, I realize that life isn’t about becoming someone perfect. It’s about trying, growing, and showing up every day with love and intention. So even if your journey looks different from what you once imagined, remember that every twist and turn has shaped you into the person you are today.
And maybe that’s the most beautiful thing about life – it’s not just about being who we thought we’d be, but discovering who we’re meant to become.
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